the reason i didn't go to burning man 2010

the reason i didn't go to burning man2010 is that a few days before the burn,i tried to kill myself,i cut my wrist and forearm half inch wide five inches long,messed up on my inheiritence 0f site to see the future,loved in a very beautiful apt. in nor-cal and spirits and hood(black power)said don't move back to bay area,for you'll go through same thing as you did in bay area as a kid as an adult and i didn;t listen to the spirits or hood and everything said would happen did happen;in the way of wrong.as been through by haters be'n looked at as on everything as only be'n white trash born in country southeast,swamps and be'n an n-lover well fare bum.for thirty-four years it's been that way,so i was like'you know fuck this all'been through with that.i didn't ask to be born so why hate on me?that shit dosen't equal any common sence to be looked or thought as that way.so i say to all haters?...."WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU DONE TO FIND GOOD HOMES FOR HORSES AND DOGS AND KIDS OF BLACK POWER AND THEIR MOM'S AND THE GODESS OF RAP IN BAY AREA OF THEIR KIDS TO HAVE A PLACE TO STAY AND TO EAT?BEFORE YOU SAY VILE SICNESS OF HATE ,WORK ON YOUR ENERGY OF SHAME BEFORE YOU SAY SOMETHING."i've always did what i said i would do to care take of all these events,i live it i don't speak i do,i speak of these things in my head,spin my folks near insane of thoughts of beautiful to care take to give back,so no hater can say shit to me.do 3000plus hard core crunches,1000push-ups a day,lose 100pounds in 61 day's to be in shape,not even pro sports players do this a day to be in shape.i've played spotrs,i know what it takes to be in shape.